)(( hannah mello ))(

What a film can do.

I sat there tonight. The movie theater (the film will go unnamed). And I remembered for the first time in years, what a movie can do.

In Winter 2004, the same thing had happened. I went with my posse of girls to see a flick, and I ended up being the last person to leave the theater.

Spring 2004. Fall 2001. The same.

There were films I didn't even get to see on the Big Screen that will forever be on the wall of my mind. Constantly challenging my thinking and perceptions of how the world works or could. Films from Fall 1981, Summer 1937, Fall 1941.

I wish we could talk about what dates and times and films there were for you. When a film goes into a space of influence and impact that is surprising to the point of astounding.

Tonight that happened.

I've been working a lot this year. 4 jobs. Tons of hours. A lot of mental calisthenics always. A lot gets put to the back burner. When I'm working hard, I dig in. Too far in. Tonight was the first night in months that I spent intentional quality time alone. I really needed it. Time to creatively and spontaneously shape a night. Time to breathe and be. Time to think about things that I don't usually schedule in.

So, I stepped into the theater just for fun and I left reminded. Reminded of the reason why life excites me sometimes. Reminded of what thinking makes me want to sign up- to get on board- to give time- to be a part of something big and something worth it.

I'm grateful. I'm grateful for what a film can do. I don't know how 2005 would have played out otherwise. A film, actually 2 (Spring 2004, Winter 2004), really pushed me out to adventure in a way that I am still venturing now.

Wow. What a film can do...

posted by )(( hannah mello ))( @ 9:38 PM