)(( hannah mello ))(

S t u tt e rs "

I haven't written abstract in a while.
Strange, but it almost feels wrong even to attempt it--
even though it once used to be my reflexive style.

But all I can do is be abstract ...
on the topic of life stutters....

Dictionary.com defines "stutter" (noun) as:
"distorted speech characterized principally by
blocks or spasms interrupting the rhythm"...

Stutters are a part of life realities.

Life realities that have the given (mathematically speaking) of:
paradox--
of complications--
of surprising, strangely predictable-- yet unexpected flipsides.

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" being firm on something only to realize you weren't all along
" having balls needlessly and being without them when you need them most
" missing the people that miss you the least
" learning a lesson but hurting the one who taught it to you
" remembering only after you forgot
" watching a film/program/or somebody else's life
and seeing your real life reality in it (as if for the first time)
" talking all day but still feeling like you're not expressing yourself
" being absolutely at home and yet feeling like your feet aren't on the ground
" laughing the most you ever have in your life and feeling the most deep
" seeing things simpler but being aware of more complexities
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S t u tt er s.
Life S t u tt er s sometimes.

I have a feeling it's time for me to start painting again. Yep, abstract painter I am. But painting for me is also what writing is-- it just FLOWS. It's as if I know what I'm doing, and I HAVE NO IDEA. :) Ahaha! Another stutter! ___ "feeling like you know what you're doing when you have no freaking clue. :)

I think that one art store on 33rd and Broadway will get a visit from me... Friday.

:) hmmmm.....
A toast to life's stutters. To how they increase with adulthood's more layered living style.
A toast to being aware of them-- not afraid of them-- and ok with them in self & others.

posted by )(( hannah mello ))( @ 6:52 PM